Jornal de rhontique, 16 mai 23

Glad you had a nice day with your family for Mother's Day, and glad they picked up carry-out so you didn't have to cook. I felt bad for Debbie Cousins reading about all her cooking for her family. My husband didn't remember and I didn't remind him again since it had only been a couple of days. Guess it doesn't matter to him. Our son-in-law did call me to wish me a happy Mother's Day which I thought was very nice. He is still grieving greatly for our daughter and still crying every day. She was a big personality and I think he lived vicariously through her. Seeing you saying you had debilitating grief over losing your sister, I could really relate to that. I've been sinking (as you see) lower lately with grief over my marriage and the loss of our daughter. I think I am just starting to grieve over her. My doctor offered me Paxil a year or two ago but I said no. I suppose if I get much lower I will reconsider. I took it years ago for a while but even a half pill made me spacey enough I was afraid to drive so went off cold turkey. When I took it I was told to go off caffeine because that was counterproductive. I only drink 1 cup of coffee a day, and it's half decaf. I'm considering going off that other half-cup. I'm a little afraid of the possible side effects of Paxil. There are a few people that become suicidal. I believe if I didn't have a relationship with Christ that I would be suicidal. I'm so grateful to think about living for all eternity with Him. Thank you for caring and for checking in on me. That is true of you more than anyone else here on FS. It amazes me that at least 5 people recently have suggested I go to live in assisted living. I don't get why they think I'm ready for that. Two of them are neighbors that see that I'm taking care of my home and gardening. Isn't assisted living the next thing to a nursing home? I don't ever want to go into one! Oh well, one just can not account for what some people say. I know going and taking care of your mom is hard on you. It is a beautiful gift of sacrificial love you are giving her. I admire you greatly. The Lord loves you so much. You certainly have a crown waiting for you in Heaven. I look forward to knowing you in person someday in Heaven. Actually, now that I think of it, you are my Christian sister. Nothing like your real sister, but it pleases me to be able to say you are my beloved Christian sister since I am so proud of you and think you are a lovely generous person.