Going the wrong way with the weight. Will bump up the water and the protein. I feel like I have cut out carbs but then again, I know that I have not.
Monday: coffee with almond milk, chocolate cake with chocolate icing, 1 ounce provolone, 1/2 ounce salami, plus half of a summer squash. Lunch: whipping cream, maple syrup, cabbage, onions, chicken thigh with no skin, chocolate cake.
Dinner: more whipped cream (now it's gone). Went out with my daughter and we got a roast chicken and took it to her house and ate with her birdie Dusty! My grandbirdie. also had a beer, rice, and creamed spinach, and a bit of cake.
I know deeply that I am never going to be less than 150 pounds, maybe will be 160 forever. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's having time to think about the rest of my life, but I am truly sad that I can't get myself to lose weight.
Lately I am feeling the burden of being alone and being isolated so much. When I had friends around and activities to go to, I was really happy. But now I see that I have no partner and it is painful to feel so responsible for everything that goes on around me because I have no partner.
